The Innate Musings of an Insane Mind :)

           Have been on this interospection for quite a long time.This ME seems to be a perfect paradox !:P I wonder if everyone does feel the same about themselves :P Knowing a lot on ourselves have to make it easier to define ourselves. But every time I try for that the definitions seem surreal :P             May be  its because we change every second, without even us knowing and noticing that. And at times we do find ourselves hovering between two extremities. Yep extemities and total opposites thats something I have noticed about me.Apart from the characteristics, attitudes and personality that define me; on a closer look I just find this ME vanishing, feels a kinda emptiness that makes me wonder of what is it that makes ME? :P Its wonderful when you learn that some people just know you, more than you do, yourself! :)                           Well  may be We just have to thank those wonderful people who knows a much more on ourselves that we do about us. Its cause of the

                  I always loved those evening/ night travels I had with my friend/colleague . Those moments of freedom and space you get with those travel times were owesome to me! It was during one of those days that I met her. She was blonde and beautiful in her own way. The stone on her nose ring shone and lit her face with an aura everytime she blushed! I had noted her from the beginning itself. A kinda intimacy that you build up with people, at the first sight itself!  :)                   That day she sat next to me. After a couple of minutes, I started a conversation with her; well I was too good at that; apart from the extremities of my usual mood swings :P She hesitated at first to talk, yet in course of time words flowed and in an hour I found us talking on the things that meant much to us shredding all the vulnerability levels. She told it was the first time in her life that she feels this free to talk to a stranger; yep I was one! ; apart from the usual glances we used

                        Long hours of journey, and the awesome hours spent on reading, did serve a refreshing feel! The evening rains just reinforced the nostalgic thoughts, all those memories of child hood, the days when we sisters used to dance along with those silvery droplets and hum to the tune of those rattling shatter! Gone are the days....!! And the saddest part is that, with all these years:  with experiences enriching and fidgeting our way of life,.... Gone is that innocense that we cherised! Wish hard I could rewind my childhood, the days when life was just a four letter word, and it was hard enough to know the meaning of worries, follies, jealousy, envy, selfishness, heart breaks, , and feelings. All we knew in that world was to be happy!                           With the Life unfolding a, terrain of experiences, at times I do wonder where did  that girl who longed for all those craziness, vanish ? It was all those creepy kinda creatures and insects that scared me those

                 A year ago I was such an avid girl. Always wanted to experience life at its fullest, and hence the dreams I dreamt made some wonder, some curious,and some others jealous!They do say we learn through the experiences that we gain althrough our lives!                  A year of experiences with, the ones I wished hard to experience and the ones I was scared of experiencing, Life just gave me a whole round troll of its miniature form :P.                  We meet a lot of people, get friends with some, share a lot with some others, and may get bonded to certain others in a short span, still,there are those 'close to heart 'people who know "who u are" inspite of all the dramas and makeups you do, to cover up experiences of the so called Life !                   And There will just be those few hands to wipe your silent tears while the whole world just talks of your lusturous smile! Betraying people is alway

                 Was diligently working on completing a really tiring comparative statement that my mind started wandering to the most pro-active area of my mind. The area where the feelings Dwelled up on :P                   I was a kinda thought by people like the girl with no feelings and I ended up being on utter contrast to that ! Thanks to my LIFe and the people in it :P                   Long days of thoughts ; thoughts that discern truths and lies, rights and wrongs and I used to feel like the chain wont ever end up on a greener grass. :P                 Much to my solace I happened to read a book, these days, that calmed my thoughts down and settled me up taking things on a lighter note :)                  We all long for a perfect life. We plan for that, yearn for that and die, living for that! And at tymes when we just loose tracks, we kinda feel like nothing is gonna be all right again ! Again as back to normalcy seems a kinda forbidden area to re enter to!.

               A persumably good day and after long days of drowsiness and lethargic vibes finally I got this ironic whim to scribble on my blog! :)               Its been exactly two years since I started blogging. Had two blogs previously which I ended up deleting owing to its rising popularity and quality of contents it had :P Was reading this personal blog of mine lately, and could find that its been long that I had a positive post on life. :P               Inspite of one of my friends consoling me, telling that apart from all, this so called Blog of mine got a 'Soul' (I really dont know whether he was kidding :P) I personally feel that Its been long, that this so called 'soul of my blog', has started stinking and its high time that I do something about it  :P               Ofcourse words are the thoughts of a writer flowing all the way from the deep and darker corners of mind to the finger tips, ( So cant blame me for all those emo-posts :P) There are times w

An absolute worst day! Realised I'm just a GIRL ! And I hate being this!