The Innate Musings of an Insane Mind :)

            Every Day is special. It does teach us something that we could cherish and keep along all through our journey of life. A year of Fortunes,triumphs,serendipities, griefs, and discontentments, just came to an end. Its the time to reflect upon those moments that lit our lives, made us shred a tear, think profusely and eventually made us this better person, that we are now! ‘Another New year is here.. Another year to live! To banish worry, doubt, and fear, To love, laugh and give!’ Let's celebrate the year end, thanking Him for all those Blessings, Love and care bestowed. Let the year ahead inspire us to achieve everything that we longed for! Have a great year Ahead! :)

                       Words! I always believed they had the power to heal, express, and give strength. Even thought, I could play with them, and build a world out of them. A world of magical words that could mesmerize,enthrall and well up the eyes in an instant. No more does it seem the same. Realized they are subtle.The ones that change dimensions with time!And seems like refraining all those words..as they have lost their meaning! Felt that She needs time, to analyze, respond, and move ahead. Surprisingly I have no words left, for her!

                       Long days, & exasperating thoughts made myself busy such that I eventually forgot to post most of my thoughts these days. And since most of them stay irrelevant right now, let me end up posting a thought that striked me the past week cause, it seems relevant and sensible even now. J -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------                       The tiresome day and the climate doesnt seem to affect the thought stream. It stayed as lucid as it was. And the clarity in those made me feel exalted and inspired.                       Relationships. That was the thought of the day! The concept of the need to name them or not! I was wondering all day long, how they could be defined, how those boundaries are to be set. A definition that was needed to move ahead, still couldnt be given at an instant. It was a text that made me ponder on this. It said like this. "The most beautiful re

                            Having proclaimed that the experience of "falling in love" is a sort of illusion which in no way constitutes real love, let me conclude by shifting into reverse and pointing out that falling in love is in fact very, very close to real love. Indeed, the misconception that falling in love is a type of love is so potent precisely because it contains a grain of truth.The experience of love also has to do with ego boundaries, since it involves an extension of one's limits. One's limits are one's ego boundaries.When we extend our limits through  love, we do so by reaching out, so to speak, toward the beloved, whose growth we wish to nurture For us to be able to do this,our beloved object must first become beloved to us; in other words we must be attracted towards,invested in or committed to an object outside of ourselves; beyond the boundaries of self. Psychiatrists call this process of attraction, investment and commitment "cathexis&qu

                Why do we all tend to make mistakes even when we know we are on the way to them? They do say we learn from mistakes and move ahead. Still mistakes aren't those things we consciously do I guess. They just happen. Though all those factors does count, still the depth of those wounds makes us realise the magnitude of those mistakes. Forgiveness is the sole way to the peace of mind. Yeah,  forgive and forget,that's the mantra of the day, though the latter doesn't seem that practicable in life, its worth a try to move ahead.                   Well, some things are meant to happen. How ever hard we try to curb on those notions, they seems to echo everytime we conciously try to suppress them. And at a certain point we do find ourselves stuck up in the middle, as if we have lost our way to trail ahead!. And these dilemmas do make us realise that, a retreat or a retaliation is not worth at the moment..And we are forcefully convinced to believe in letting go off thing

                          Most of the arguments I had till date has surprisingly earned me   the people, on whom I could count on always. May be that’s why I always used to encourage those silly fights and arguments, at the end of which I could get either a lesson or a person as they puts it. And today I can’t help writing this post in spite of my nerves longing for a deep sleep, to unleash the draining effect, those hectic dosage of lectures of the day, incurred on them :P                          A meet up that made me inspire, ravish and invoked, a great deal of 'that stuff', for which I was searching within me for so long. I must say this was the ever best day of this whole year. Have never met someone so influential all this year. Some people make you think, you may relate with some, respect the thoughts of some,( though you dont pretty well relate to them) and may find some others purely rhetoric, intriguing and insensible. This was a real exception from all those. An

Luke 7:35 By the river Piedra I sat down and wept. There is a legend that everything that falls into  the waters of this river—leaves, insects, the feathers of birds—is transformed into the  rocks that make the riverbed. If only I could tear out my heart and hurl it into the current,  then my pain and longing would be over, and I could finally forget. By the river Piedra I sat down and wept. The winter air chills the tears on my cheeks, and  my tears fall into the cold waters that course past me. Somewhere, this river joins  another, then another, until far from my heart and sight all of them merge with the sea. May my tears run just as far, that my love might never know that one day I cried for him. May my tears run just as far, that I might forget the River Piedra, the monastery, the  church in the Pyrenees, the mists, and the paths we walked together. I shall forget the roads, the mountains, and the fields of my dreams the dreams that will  never come true. I remember my &q

We don’t condemn it as immature

                  This journey always seems to me like an exploration. A journey that revealed to me, the vibrant and exuberant 'me' which stayed within, all these years.The audacity of these thoughts makes me to grow beyond the self; which I always thought was the source of these versatile notions . The freedom which I believed in, had no boundaries though; now, do I realise, Life was, and is about constraints. Constraints that chain you! And its by the accceptance of these, that we learn to live.                  Those whims were magical though, doesnt seem to be sensible. May be it was the 'Girl' in me who made me this desperate and dumb. Though within these whims and notions I searched harder for those truths, failed everytime pathetically. Truth! We live, in search of them. Yearn hard, to live up to them. Still fail desperately every time, trying to be true to ourselves.                   A predicament of ideals and virtues that create a perfect schism betwe

I see that Hilal is starting to feel uncomfortable. ‘I’m not interested in what our relationship was in a past life. We’re here in the present. In Novosibirsk, you made me forgive you and I did. Now I’m asking you a favour: tell me that you love me. ’ I hold her hand. ‘You see this river? “ Well, in the living room in my apartment at home is a painting of a rose immersed in just such a river. Half of the painting was exposed to the effects of the water and the elements, so the edges are a bit rough, and yet I can still see part of that beautiful red rose against a gold background. “I know the artist. In 2003, we went together to a forest in the Pyrenees and found a dried-up stream and we hid the painting under the stones on the stream bed. ‘The artist is my wife. “When I met her, I was convinced that our relationship wouldn’t work out, and for the first two years, I was sure that one of us would leave. “ In the five years that followed, I continued to think that we had simply got u

                 Now Hectic is what the day can be called. Still Love this capriciousness with which the hours stretch ahead..:)                 Though a tangibitily eases off all those woes, this 'Me' seems to be an amazing maze which shreds vehemently all those strains and fathoms, still yearning to stretch to a greater magnitude..Albeit its quite an ironical discovery of the self. :)

"I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I've learned that it's not what happens to people, It's what they do about it. I've learned that no matter how thin you slide it, there are always two sides. I've learned that you should always have loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you'll see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you

              Apart from all these good things that happen around me,I do sense something wrong somewhere. Though I thought, it would be just a notion of mine and did try to ignore it everytime it casted a spell on my thoughts, Life has started to prove it again I guess!. My notions and forecasts do happen for sure..experiences do count that. Still whats that to handle, for which my mind dares to stretch itself to this magnitude?                        Well, r easons evolve in this journey and we are left back, just to jot them together and to read this exiciting story that life sketches for us every moment :)

                An exciting phone call made my day. Made me Elated, surprised and thoughtful at the same time. Should I feel proud of being part of yet another romance blooming around, or is it high time I should caution about the serious after effects it could bring down to you people in future? Makes me sound weird! Whatever :P My thoughts do take a deviation of 180 degrees around now! :D -To falling in love. How can people fall in love just like that? Sounds utterly insensible,and illogical to the prudent girl in me :P They do say, It just happens..a kind of serendipity that life reveals at the right time. A sensation that every one yearns for; to love and to be loved! Must be a real magic that works absolute wonders. :) Reminds me of that song of Bryan Adams! :) "Look into my eyes, you will see What you mean to me Search your heart, search your soul And when you find me there you'll search no more Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for You