Guess the idealistic girl is back again :)

           These days were the days of realisations or to be exact, days of introspection and some serious thinking I guess! Its when we get the time to peep into ourselves and reflect on our thoughts that we discover the most veiled secrets even about ourselves! The time spent on ourselves will never be wasted, It makes you understand the true person you are.And its really wonderful meeting that person. :)

          All these years of my life I feared of being committed; whether its a dream or a relationship or anything that needed commitment! Commitments scared me like anything! It may be an insecurity of the self; a fear of whether being able to live up to that commitment, a fear of being hurt and hurting people in the long run.. It  really might sound a little weird and strange, yet am compelled by my innate curiosity to understand what people define as love. Our lives run like a poetry of love, and I believe, for its in love that we grow, evolve and rise up to our potential of what we are and what can we be. My definition and understanding of love has been changing over the years, and though how much ever I love o give an expression to that emotion, silence always beats me by a great margin!

         People around may be of two extremes ; the ones bartering dreams for materialistic pleasures are one extreme, while  those trading realistic positive encounters of finding selfless love for the lure of illusionary and obsessive yearnings to an extent is another!

 Sometimes when I chat with my peers and pals, I can often find  them being trapped in their own multi dimentional wonderland of dreams awaiting for their Perfect Soulmates. Princesses and Damsels in distress living in a  fairytale world, yearning for their Prince Charming to ride to their rescue and sweep them off their feet, often failing to acknowledge that life is happening around them and not those whimsical  tales!. Sometimes its so difficult to identify which group they belong to: people who are in love or people who are in love with the idea of being in love. And at times the bubble of illusion, that they comfortably encompass around them wouldn’t equip for most of the real life experiences of theirs! And that’s the pathetic  part!

           Whenever we swap ideas on the things that are meaningful to us in life, we realize that we are goaded either by instinct or intellect. And at times they do contradict each other making us to hang between the two worlds ! Life is all about tough choices and we all choose based on our own values and ideals. The lure of  fairy tale romantic notions shouldn’t  spoil people at their chances of serendipity that the life offers. The lure of nihilism is a dark temptation that envelops us if we dwell in dreams and forget to live annihilating the blessings of life. The wait may be on, yet, lets not forget that no one is perfect: me, you, and all those prince charmings and the knights in shimmering armour  are armed with our own limitations and idiosyncrasies which makes us all imperfectly perfect. The social media around us do pose a grand deal of confusions around us making us expect a lot, tuning ourselves right from the childhood about all those fantasies and fairy tales, love and relationships offer. It seems to be much better,of rescuing ourselves from all those clout of dreams and the deep schism that the intersection of the virtual and real worlds present to us everyday. :)