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"engae enadhu kavidhai kanavilae ezhudhi madiththa kavidhai  

vizhiyil karaindhuvittadhaa ammammaa vidiyal azhiththuvittadhaa 

kavidhai thaediththaarungaL illai enkanavai meettuth thaarungaL..."

As Chithra sang in her unbeatably melodious voice it was just melancholy that filled in me and I have no  freaking idea on how many Times I kept on clicking the play again button! 

Awesome Awesome Awesome! 

 P.S : I know. I 've been acting paranoid. I know there are a hell lot of things waging a war within me every second and the questions bubbling up to which I never am gonna get an answer. But the saddest part is that I've been reluctant to get out of this paranoidism, the cynic behaviour I 'm encompassing myself with. May be there are ennumber of ways by which I can easily get healed with just a thoughtful deed or a concious act to break this shell. But pathetically, I seem to be loving this 'getting drowned' in the effervescent feeling of being hurted !
At times I do wonder, what makes me trigger this monotonous talk to a virtual wall here, with the strangers out at some  obscure corner of the world, reading my blog posts while they search for the weirdo-spelling words on the internet. Yup this has kinda become my diary, the diary that atleast my mother wont ever get a chance to read! Not that I prefer to fool around,or stay away from her, yep in a way I am, but I truly dont want her to worry over this crazy daughter of hers, being unable to cope up with fast moving, ever changing Life of hers!
May be at every point we all do need somebody to assure us that everything is kinda going to be okay, and perfect. The hard feelings, the emo-surges, the missing phenomenons, and all those that chase us day and night, everything may find its way to a well celebrated climax, where there are no rooms for the past, the regrets, or the mind-fucking, memories !

May be its time I stop my frequent slithy blog posts, heed to what my friends say and get indulged in some serious writing so that atleast can have myself  recognised as an Lil-author by the end of this year. Long way to go ! Amen!